Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to me! Actually, my birthday was yesterday. I have entered into a new decade....30 years old. For some, turning 30 is a crisis. People see the carefree attitude of the 20's slipping away. 30 means you have to be a real adult. 30 means responsibility, duty, all which can be summed up into one word: BORING.
This is not the case with me. I am looking forward to my 30's. I see the possibility of what I really want in my life finally being able to happen. See, my late teens and entire 20's pretty much sucked. This is what happens when an eating disorder is the most important thing in your life.
I don't remember the last good birthday I had. Most of them were spent alone, just me and my eating disorder. Last night, at my birthday celebration, I could see just how far I've come. Eating a nice dinner with 10 of my friends, eating ice cream cake at 11pm, playing Mario Kart on the Wii with the guys until 1am...these seemingly ordinary things were unheard of in my life for the past 11 years.
This birthday was exactly what I needed. I've been feeling stuck, like I'm not making progress in my recovery. Last night showed me that while I may feel stuck now, I've come a long way, and if I keep working hard, I can recover and live the life I was meant to live.